I have a hard time sharing difficult experiences (who doesn't, right?). I generally gloss over them with both people in my life and with my T - who, however, usually realizes when I'm avoiding an issue and gently pushes me to talk. Some things I have been able to share with T, with great difficulty, and they have become a crucial part of our sessions. We revisit them, make connections with what is happening to me in the present moment, and so on. With one in particular, however - old, repressed grief that has started "bothering" me again in the last couple of years - this hasn't happened.
During a session about 9 months ago, I finally mentioned this trauma (I guess I can call it that?) to T. It was a very unpleasant experience for me, one that I wouldn't necessarily enjoy repeating. However, that session and the couple of sessions where we briefly mentioned it again have brought me some amount of peace of mind. I know this trauma has played a huge role in my life, and I think talking about it in therapy would help. But she never brought it up again, and I don't feel like doing it myself. As I said, it is very painful and I hate getting emotional or too vulnerable in therapy. It's not that I don't trust my T enough, I definitely do, it's just... too much? And I am also insecure bringing it up again, because if she isn't doing that, maybe it means it's not that relevant therapy-wise. On the other hand, sometimes I realize I'm talking about something unimportant during a session, and think I should just take advantage of therapy to talk about things that really matter (like this issue). I don't know what to think.
Has anything similar ever happened to you? Perhaps she is not talking about it for a therapeutic reason and I should just go with it. What do you think?