Talk therapy often doesn't heal the implicit wounds of early traumatization. Especially when trauma occurs in the first few years of life. It's encoded in our neurology, a part of our being.
It definitely sounds like you are still experiencing PTSD type symptoms of reexperiencing.
Have you tried somatic therapy or EMDR? Therapy to heal early trauma is quite different to talk therapy. Talk therapy reactivates past trauma but doesn't really change it. Somatic and EMDR therapies are more able to transform the physiological responses to traumatic rexperiencing, so they may be more helpful to you.
Trauma therapy has come a long way in the last few years of research and not all therapists are trained in the techniques that are now found to be most useful in the treatment of trauma.