TRIGGER WARNING


I keep on going through the motions. I'm sick of it. Sick! I am in no way stable. I wish I didn't exist. Everyone has helped me so much and I appreciate it, but I just don't think I deserve it, honestly. And then I just don't want to be/feel anymore. I am sick of fighting. I am so far from normal and I go through the motions (or emotions), and I'm back at hating myself. I'm back sick of myself. I just want to rip myself to shreds so there would be nothing left. In no way am i trying to get attention, I actually feel this way. Ugh. I might go to Switzerland, who at the time has legal euthenasia. I am not sure of the rules, but I think you need to be there a certain amount of time. Hopefully these are just my negative thoughts.