((((Colleen)))). Everyone that has ever had to go through what you have been through with your child 8 years ago feels remourse when they go to move on in another direction in life. Things almost become the existence of their own entity of remembrance for the child, in order to cope with the loss. I hope in time that you will know that even though you threw out things of your childs, that it is okay to remember without the constant guilt of having to keep things long term in order to feel connected to your child. I am sure you did everything you could do as a mother, and I am sure that you know that as well (although it is sometimes hard to believe) if you suffer with depression or another mental health disorder. Hopefully you will discuss these feelings with your therapist to help you move forward in your life. I hope you feel better soon Colleen, and I sincerely hope you contact your therapist to help you during this time if you are not feeling better soon. PM anytime. Take care.Soidhonia