Dear T,
I am so afraid you are going to get rid of me and be sick of me. I feel like the lowest form of human around. I totally trust you but have difficulty why you would keep me on as a patient. I have felt like you do like me as a patient, and I am horrified by myself. I am horrified that you will see the horribleness of me. I just hate myself. This isn't you, it's me. I go through this wherever I go sooner or later. Sooner or later it's like I somehow **** everything up. I love you as my therapist and fellow human being. I really don't want to be a nuisance. Please be straight with me MOnday. If you want me to leave, I will. I wish I was normal and not me. I hate being me.