I totally feel you. I'm approaching my 30s and realizing my entire outlook on life is changing. I used to be excited about dating, meeting new prospects, falling in love etc but after being head over heels in love with my last ex and that not working out, I'm very skeptical. I remember when I was telling someone close to me I was going to break it off with my ex because of xyz reason they told me, "yea, well you'll go through that with anyone you're with so you might as well tolerate it from him." I was like WHAT?! This person is married. It gave me the impression that everyone settles and over time builds an appreciation for the person who stuck it out with them but idk. I am single now but I don't have the same enthusiasm about love/ soulmates/ marriage that I once had.