Hmmm I’m not sure I know for sure what the reason was but I feel like he’s said multiple times that I’m not “too much.” He has said that he thinks I need someone to “push up against” so maybe I was indirectly asking for that. I don’t think I was emailing too frequently. As I look back at my old emails, to me it almost sounds like I was asking him to cut me off, but I don’t know if that played into his decision. I think in general the email exchanges were clearly unsatisfying for me and my T was being forced into a position of offering reassurance which wasn’t exactly what I wanted or needed and then I was frustrated. It’s confusing, I guess. He has said he’ll still read emails, but like you, it felt better to me to make a clean break. I reserve the right to email him if I really might be helpful to me to get something out, but otherwise I think I won’t. It’s only been about a month, but so far so good. As another poster mentioned, it feels like my feelings are no longer “bleeding out” between sessions and that has felt SO much better for me. I’m aware that anything can change in this weird world of therapy though.

Sorry you lost your replies from your T. Are you ok with that? I’d probably still be talking to him about it if I wasn’t.