My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.

My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.

We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.

I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.

Hugs to everyone