Hi carol. I see from your profile that you lost your mum recently. I'm so sorry. This time of year won't be easy but you will get through it. When i lost my mum in 2007 it was as if someone had put their hand in my stomach and pulled out a lump of flesh and i had a hole there. i was incomplete, lost and numb. This lasted for a few months. It hits people in different ways. Don't isolate yourself, talk to people it helps. Coming up to Christmas there will be all sorts of opportunities to talk to people. Look on meetup.com and see if there are any groups you fancy. Look at what's going on locally. Maybe there are things you could go to. Dinners, church events, christmas concerts, whatever. Maybe use the lelplines. Like i always say to people on here feel free to pm me. I will always answer. Best wishes.