For the last years or so I was chasing the wrong thing... a "Cure for Everything" I ignored the fact that there are more and more studies being published on neurology and neuropsychiatry and we will surely have a Cure for Everything one day... I was ignoring my personal incompetency for that subject..

Now that I've gained some insight, I realize it's theoretical chemistry that I always wanted to do. I am going to learn mathematics applied in physical sciences, I am gonna do a PhD in theoretical chemistry and continue to work as a physical chemist, searching for whatever that holds my interest then. I believe it might be Computational and Theoretical Chemistry. It doesn't matter and I shouldn't waste my time predicting what'll hold for me in 5+ years from now to me. I'll be me always but science won't be. Thanks to people like me, in a good way.

I always wanted to be a hero and save the world... it doesn't work that way. I will be a hero, of course, but in my field of expertise, interest, and competency.

I am inspired by the film the Theory of Everything. I was hating mathematics but I've accepted there's no way in hell I will be a scientist if I keep ignoring mathematics. I've realized it subconsciously months ago that's why I believe I did great at my physical chemistry examination last month. The result of the exams are yet to come, as it's just ended, but I do believe I'll make my teachers proud of me once again.

Life's given me lemons, I'll make lemonade.


Goodbye, pain.