Yeah, it's filling a need. Hopefully my need will be met someday. It sucks to have this obsession. My father died when I was young and my mother and I had a dysfunctional relationship. I've had obsessions with other older people and authority figures before (i.e teachers, supervisors at work, neighbors, etc.) but those obsessions would gradually lose steam. But this one has been the most intense, probably because I talk to him about some very personal things. You don't talk about such personal things with teachers, dentists or supervisors at work.

How about telling him about my obsession but leaving out the part about driving by his house and looking up his family members on myspace. I can just picture him going home to his wife and saying in a panic, "Honey, get rid of your myspace page NOW!" I'm worried he'll perceive me as a danger and drop me as a patient, which won't help me at all because it won't be addressing my underlying issues. When I find a new doctor I'll simply start obsessing over the new doc instead.

Thanks for the advice everyone. I know other people have had similar obsessions but I think maybe I've taken it farther than most people, which is worrisome. Do you know anyone else who's driven by their pdoc or T's house? I know a LOT of info on this guy.