It’s been 4 weeks since the break up, I barely thought about him and I was not obsessing about him, stalking him on fb, I am sleeping, eating and felt much motivated in general, It felt like I was back on track. My son traveled to spend thanksgiving with my daughter and I. Since he lives in the states I never spoke to him about my ex. This morning he asked about him and I told him what happened. I guess talking about him stirred up my emotions and I’m back at feeling really sad. I woke up this morning so energized and so positive and I can’t believe that talking about him was going to make me feel this way. I’m back at feeling like I want to call him. I won’t do it but that’s what I want to do right now. I have every reason to feel happy, I have my daughter and son with me and I just want to feel happy. I’ve been asked to go on a date by a guy I liked and talked to on an off for about 6 years, he is a radio announcer and his dad owns the radio station in the town that I live, good looking and educated and I can’t even accept to go out with him, I’m not ready, I am still in love with a guy that does not deserve anything from me. I so desperately want to forget about him and continue my life as he never happened. I might have you bored with how I deal with my emotions but it really does help me feel better when I write here, I am sorry!!!