Wow, it's great that your T worked with you on the issues. I'm obsessed with my pdoc but more in the fatherly way. I wish I was his kid. I have fantasies with him hugging me, comforting me, taking me to Disney World, and doing other things that parents do with their kids. I stare at his big hands during our appointments and I think about how those big hands could hug and comfort me when I'm crying.