I cannot believe that you said everything that I feel. I want to cry because it is so nice to know that someone actually is experiencing the exact same feelings that I am - granted our causes may be different or not... I have been so afraid to even post - I posted my introduction and haven't been able to post - until now. I don't know what to tell you, but I think it is really important for us to be here - even if we just browse. Thank-you so much for posting, maybe now I'll be more open to let my thoughts and feelings out. I have been suffering from depression for what seems like forever and it just has to get better. I don't know how or when but it just has to!