Finally home from work and Cardiologist, I didn't pick up the prescription I figure I've had it for this long what is one more day. Work was great managed to get a lot of things done including help my boss approve the budget for next year. Ironically I can't budget myself but I can offer several suggestions for a large clinic. The PA even had my favorite kind of coffee and a donut waiting on my desk for me this morning. He also decided to wear the same color as me everyone thought it was planned. Nope we both decided to wear a wine colored shirt.

Cardiologist went great I really liked the guy, bonus points that he was attractive. He's like I'm so used to angry old guys that I'm not used to dealing with a 24 year old. I have high blood pressure and Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia. He thinks my psych meds have caused Metabolic Syndrome also. Thank you Zyprexa you and Latuda are the gifts that keep on giving long after I'm no longer on you.

The Cardiologist was super kind he could tell I was anxious and soothed that anxiety by not dismissing me as a psych case. I have two fun tests that have to be approved by insurance so hopefully sometime next week. This week is the week I eat myself into a food coma. The nurse and doctor thought we were in a relationship. The nurse thought we even made a cute couple. I also had my fifth EKG of the year, I'm half tempted to tease my primary that there needs to be a sixth before the end of the year.

I think there is a problem I am catching feelings for this PA and I can tell he has the same issue we talked about it when everyone had left. He likes me he is just scared to make the move since I did just get out of a long term relationship. I am scared because I am technically one of his bosses, I know his patients love him and he has never had any issues I just keep thinking if we do get together what happens when he gets a malpractice suit lodged against him, what if a patient wants to complain and I'm the only Practice Manager in the office. I know he's been a PA for six years and hasn't had these issues, I know it's my anxiety making things worse.

I feel I need to have a conversation with my boss since she's noticed that he and I flirt with each other all the time and that he accompanied me to the doctor today. I should still be grieving about my past relationship but all that I can think of is this sweet PA. He actually wants to act like an adult instead of child who wants to turn me into his second mother. We actually have a lot more in common than my previous relationship, it's just if we did get together we would have an age gap more than I am used to. I know he is only 31 and it's not that big of a gap. Not to mention I haven't been here long and it's probably too soon to rock the metaphorical boat by getting with a provider.

Hugs to everyone and thank you guys for your concern about the doctor