I fully feel this! It seems like my depression has not let up at all for about 7-8 months now. I’m in a serious deep episode at the moment and I’ve already been IP 2x this year 🤦🏻*♀️ I really wish I could get over this episode and be manic again 💯 I want to feel joy and happiness. I want to feel full laughter! But for now, I’m stuck in this rut of depression.