I tried to go off seroquel. I did go off seroquel. I'm back on a low dose comparitivly to earlier in the year. I got way, way out of balance and I didn't know. Therapist told me last time "anosognosia" She explained, I understood, but I don't think I kept it. I definitely was hypomanic for awhile. It was great actually. Phenomenal. Then it got uncomfortable. And then more. And then more. At that point I don't even know. Paranoia, other weird thinking, everything just got way out of balance. I was barely sleeping. I knew, but didn't. There was a night i don't think i slept at all. I was in bed but I don't think I actually slept. I did weird things and was not thinking clear at all. A friend got me to realize I was manic which I wasn't sure I agreed but I restarted seroquel then. And took again. And again. And again, etc. I'm just taking small IR doses but probably have 9-10 doses in me from saturday afternoon. I will never, ever, do this again. There has to be better balance on meds not ruining my life on either end of spectrum. I don't want to be asleep all day and obese. The other extreme isn't ok either. I've lost a ton of weight. I don't think I hardly ate at all last week. I new, but didn't. My thoughts got way out of sync with reality. I knew, but I didn't. I have no idea. Bottom line, I will never, ever go off a medication again without someone watching me closely. Therapist, doctor, friends, family. I totally botched this. If someone would have asked me every few days, even if it annoyed the hell out of me, are you taking seroquel at all? Do you have any weird thoughts, compulsive repetitive thoughts, sleep hours, etc. I think i did fine at first, but once I was fully off of it for more than a couple weeks, things went bad. And then worse. So, anyone reading, don't ever go off an AP if you have bipolar, unless you are being watched like a hawk. You don't have the insight to NOT have that kind of monitoring. I'm very dissappointed in myself but I'm pretty sure this is life changing and is actually going to end up helping me have my life back. With balance, and bipolar IN-order. I said to myself and others, I might totally crash and burn by doing this. I did. I ****ed up royally by coming off it. Why? Ultimately, it's the no insight/anosognosia. I can't even ****ing believe I stop taking it. Went way too fast. And with way too little support, and it's my fault. I do not want to be on it at all, but I'm sticking with it at least for now or at least till I have a better treatment structure. I never stopped the valium or lamictal. I almost wish I would have and I would have crashed and burned sooner to be honest. This is very long, I didn't intend it. Never stop taking meds unless people are watching you like a hawk. It might go great if that is happening, but if not, the odds are very poor you will not have serious problems as a result.