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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird
I'm sorry you're struggling 
I don't think it's fair that he brings up things in that way... but maybe he's worried about you being depressed?
I also struggle with not doing much. I'm going to school part time. So 2 classes this semester and 3 next. I always feel guilty when people ask me how many classes I'm taking, when I say I'm only taking a couple/part time they then ask me where I work, they assume if I'm going to school part time then I must have a job.... it's very upsetting. I hope you're able to work it out with your husband and explain how it makes you feel
Do you have any hobbies or anything you'd like to learn, languages, skills, info (any topics you find interesting)?
Maybe you could set up a couple times a day to sit down and devote some time to something like that. For example, I have an extremely hard time getting out of bed because my meds make me exhausted and my motivation tends to be low so what I have done is picked a few things I enjoy to work on. I like art so I'm trying to improve my art skills, which feels good/relaxing. I like learning about different things so I made an account on Khan Academy which has many different subjects you can learn from for free. Really awesome site. I'm studying Italian too on my own. There are all kinds of hobbies out there, knitting, writing, gardening, playing games etc
Since I've started making myself get up and do some stuff I enjoy, it tends to energize me and get me motivated to to do other stuff during the day like errands, cleaning and whatnot. |
I would like to take classes, but we just simply don't have the money.
I tried to learn crochet at a free group through a local library, but it just wasn't for me.
I should work on my art skills. If they were there in high school (though I did not know it until I tried & the art teacher had taught some techniques, particularly about where to place eyes & noses when drawing a portrait), I ended up being very good at it. I couldn't work in color - just pencil, charcoal, silver point, black ink, but I won a lot of awards for my artwork. I don't think I have done any drawing since I graduated high school in 1996. I guess the skill would still be there?
And I never was one to create art from my mind - I always needed an image, a magazine picture, a still-life setup, a black and white xeroxed copy of a picture, a picture to enlarge via the square method and then use fingerprints & black ink to fill it in - that last one won me grand champion in art and overall high school grand champion at the local city fair, which was a big deal (we'd get days off from school, a lot of my classmates showed animals, usually cows or chickens), unless a car accident or something happened, the weekly town newspaper was filled with coverage on it. I just worry if I try art again, my skill will have left me. I know I can get images to work from easily online, print them without color and work from them. But what if my skill is gone? For some reason, the thought of that scares me.
Or maybe beading or something. My mom had taught me how to bead these intricate necklaces & bracelets with flowers when I was a kid. I forgot the method, so she would have to re-teach me if she remembers (I think she did more of it as a kid as they had one bicycle for 5 kids to share, and my sisters & I were riding our bicycles all the time when the weather allowed it, not for exercise, just for fun). I did a ton of bike riding growing up. I am sure I could find it on YouTube as well.
I struggle with my night meds leaving me exhausted. One hour after taking them, I need the bed, or I'm slurring words and not making much sense when I talk (even if I think I am making perfect sense).