So sorry you lost your mom and dad and husband. I have lost all 3, too, and find this time of year hard. I try to just take One Day At a Time and get through it. I was watching Christmas movies for awhile and they are nice but makes me think of what I'm missing with no family any more. I will binge watch some series to get myself occupied and my mind on something else at times. Do you have any pets? I have birds and a dog. My dog has helped me not to be as lonely yet still I am at sometimes more than others. I don't have any friends off line either. Well, I have one I speak to on the phone at times and I also call a telephone support line but it often is busy. Many of us with mental illness are lonely and have no one or next to no one in real life. You are not alone if that helps any.

I used to go out to movies alone but then got shamed about it and stopped going. I think I am over that though and may go back to see one or two in the future.

Anytime you want to chat I am here or will be. I stop by PC a few times a day.