HI Deyla, I am not sure of the backstory, but it sounds like things ended for a good reason. Of course there will be sadness and tears. Your initial response is pretty unusual after a breakup, unless one 100% knows for sure it's the best thing and their feelings have run dry for the person. But when you loved someone and break up, it's a sad circumstance and it typically is mourned. So what you're going through is normal.... just allow the tears and allow the sadness, but do nice things for yourself too, and yes, look to all the positives you can embrace in your life. In time, it will fade. And don't go on a date if you're not ready.