That sounds lovely pinksoil. The most amazing thing in the world when the match is there and the connection feels right. You wouldn't believe how long and hard and far I looked to find a t that I can feel connected with. Never thought it was going to happen for me.

I love it how you can be playful and jokey with him. That is an aspect of me that I'd like to foster. I don't think my t gets to see that side of me. I don't think anybody does. I don't think I know how to let that out. Memories of me with my arms held out with optimism and enthusiasm and the inevitable reprimand.

I'm excited for you about group, too! I hope it goes well for you. I wasn't that keen on my group for BPD to start with... But over time the people grew on me immensely and I was sad to leave. They helped me a lot with respect to my seeing how some of my behaivour impacted on others... And they helped me a lot with respect to feeling understood... I hope it goes well for you.