well the years long depression has lifted quite nicely ... now on a daily basis I melt down with anger , rage in its total glory ...

it seems I have traded my calm depressed life for a seething volcano of emotion .. all bad ...

well on the good side me and the wife are getting along better ... I am interacting with the kids more ...

in some ways I am right back to my teens ...

the abilify does work ... maybe too good ... old (decades old) emotions are coming up with enough energy to be really destructive this time ...

98% of the time I am in total control and life is good ... but my god my tolerence level has gone to 0% ...

I have only been on abilify for 3 weeks and am at 5mg ... he wants me at 15 ... we may have to talk about that ..

I want to stay at 5 or even reduce that ...

sorry just rambling ... Tigger ...