I re-read my original post and... 1. I really do need to get over the past... 2. I really do need to get over the idea that I must meet the expectations of others. I can only do my best.

It really helps me a lot to get out of my own head and hear your feedback. I have really worked myself up over this. My hubby says there’s no reason to feel at all pressured and just do the best I can and enjoy myself. Sounds easy enough...