Hi KittyBaby, hang in there please and stay very strong. So sorry life is so difficult. It's a real pain in the a.ss, let's face it. (((Hugs!)))

Have you looked into spiritual things? Because sometimes spirituality can give a person a different way to look at life, and can give a person hope to continue on. That's been the case for me, to an extent.

And I'm sure everyone whose read your post can understand what you're going through. You're not alone friend.

Keep posting and keep reaching out, please. Cling to life - it's for the best in the long run.