I have seriously been falling apart. I had to stay at the assisted living facility I use to live in on respite last week because I have been having so much trouble. I was doing good for a few days there but then it all hit me again, worse this time. I am probably most likely going to be starting a partial hospitalization program again for the I don't know how many times. I do wonder if my worsening depression though is due to the sexual assault that happened last May. I am realizing that every day is closer to that day's anniversary. It all really creeps me out and I am not looking forward to it. But I saw my regular dr about some things and brought up how I have been feeling and well she suggested the partial program. Actually she wants me to stay in it until the middle of May at least to make sure I make it through the anniversary. I am really terrified though of everything. I have been so down and depressed and I am not sure really about what to do anymore. I am trying my hardest and some people don't realize that and it really gets to me. I am just in need of more assistance for awhile I think. I had considered moving back into assisted living but then again I would lose everything I have, like my apartment. I think that would not be a good thing. I am just really struggling and really any kind words or advice would be great.