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Originally Posted by luvyrself
I thought that much running was problematic for u w the ED.
Regarding dissociation when I am extreme stressed I have what I call confusion. I have hidden it for years. “Darn, I really should have gotten more sleep last night”. Whatever, I had a million excuses when I was working. I worked in jobs where I could hide it.
When it’s really bad I can’t add numbers together and I have a masters degree, in Lib Science tho. Like Blueberrybook, I used to read voraciously, but now I have to use books on tape. It’s stress.
BirdDancer and everybody, is this dissociation? I’m going to look on Wikipedia.
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Yes, that much running is not good for me. Probably should not exercise at all, maybe walk around the block or something. Pdoc wants me to gain weight.
Between the dissociation and racing thoughts, I had to stop working. I have an M.S., and I couldn't calculate or remember numbers for dilutions to run gels or remember to label what I ran in each lane of a gel. Worse, it was PCR gel, which is so much easier to work with than SDS-PAGE (mostly large gels) & silver staining them. SDS-PAGE runs vertically; the gels are super thin and tear much easier, and silver staining has so many steps, it's easy to tear the gel. So I could do the French press and SDS-PAGE in grad school to get my M.S., but I couldn't even do PCR for a job.
I'm having trouble with concentrating, reading, watch a TV show or movie, even playing easy games on my tablet like solitaire. I'm on Adderall now; it helps some, but not completely. I just go up in my head, get lost up there, sometimes thinking and sometimes not. It's crazy.