The year has gotten worse. I'm so frustrated with my supervisor. I don't know if I explained this in an earlier post, but my program is supposed to be for internalized kids (in terms of behavior), because the externalized kids belong across the street at a different grammar school. So, I got rid of external kid #1 in December, but external kid #2 returned from the hospital shortly after #1's move across the street. #1 has been getting more needy and aggressive by the week. Today, she got physical with her outside counselor, while in the school. When the student was handed her consequence, she began ranting and swearing so loud that the principal had to apologize to the members of a meeting in an adjacent room. My supervisor commented on the student's outburst by saying: "That's why she's in the XXX program." But her behavior today was the exact opposite of a typical kid in my program. It's like my supervisor has changed the purpose of the program, but only within her mind. Had I known two years ago that this child was a typical member of the program, I would NEVER have accepted the job. I'm just not good with kids like her.
Tomorrow is the day I hand in the form that says I want a new job. Unfortunately, my co-workers tell me that I probably won't be offered anything else. A regular education teacher in grade 8 asked to move last year, but they said no because her grade 8 position is too hard to fill. If a position for a regular 8th grade teacher is hard to fill, what about a position for a teacher of emotionally disturbed middle schoolers?
Apparently I need to find another job in another town. I'm so sad today. I hate the thought of leaving my school. I became best friends with three of my co-workers and the psychologist in my program has been such an invaluable resource. I know that I am a good teacher and I hate to think that the school would let me leave just because they don't want to lose me as the program teacher, but my supervisor is such a stubborn, emotionless, jerk that she probably would let me go.