Low,depressed,abused,I had a spat with my narc sister and my mother shouted at me with contempt defending her,she didn't say goodnight after,she said goodbye.I took the opportunity to cut mum out of my life,and I blocked my sister from texting me,she was cut out f my life 4 years ago but she sucked me in to text her to cooperate over my mum's care cos she is blind and infirm.
I know cutting them both out of my life is the right thing to do.I don't have anyone now on a daily basis to chat to so I am feeling isolated and it is hard but I can meet people and make friends and new relationships,it won't be like this always,whereas with mum and sister they made sure I didn't have time for a life of my own,so I know I will be better off.
Also I found out two years ago when I cut my sister out she took my spare keys from my mums and let herself into my house,I only just noticed she took my photos,of me as a child,as a teenager,of holidays in Greece and of photos of me and my niece that I took birthdays and christmas at my home.I was shocked,I felt violated, it is abuse all over again,I was so angry,and this is what my mother defended my sister,saying it was my imagination and I had destroyed the photos myself and forgot about it,she lied and said I had told her that.It isn't on,I am not letting either of them near me again,years and years of serious violent emotional abuse and they deny it and act like they are the victims.I will not tolerate these hateful people in my life any longer.
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