Hello PandaPrincess: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So I thought I would say welcome to PsychCentral.

Of course, as others have already mentioned, only a mental health professional can diagnose you. However based on what you wrote one forum, here on PC, you may want to check out is the dissociative disorders forum. Here's a link just in case you haven't already found it:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/dissociative-disorders/

And then here are links to 5 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of dissociative disorders:

What is Dissociation & Multiple Personality Disorder?

In-Depth: Understanding Dissociative Disorders

Dissociative Disorder: 8 Common Signs | Relationship Corner

Dispelling Myths about Dissociative Identity Disorder

https://psychcentral.com/resources/Dissociation/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.