Holidays do not bother me much, but I think this time will be different. I am aprehensive in going to my exs Thanksgiving dinner. She did tell me that she no longer considers me as being part of her family. This is a bummer. I have been depressed over this, but holding together. However, my daughter will be there. I want to be there there with her. I am wondering if I will end up spending Thanksgiving by myself. Now if this was for xmas, that would effect me more. If I can go with her out for my birthday on New Years day, that will be something I can look forward to.