Ok, so I went to my counselling appointment today, and yes, i did tell her about my thoughts... about 5 mins before the end of the session lol. She was fine about it. She knows that around this time last year, I was shoved in hospital for the same thing, so she knows I can get through them. She asked me if they were just thoughts and that I wasnt intending on acting on them. I said that they were just thoughts, yes. But I am not too sure, really. But it was the end of the session and I didnt want to scare her so I left it at that. I should pull through. I see her again next Wednesday. It seems ages away. I am also a little worried about self-destructive behaviour in a way, but I didn't know how to express it so I said nothing. Such as: wanting to od. Such as: having a headache for hours but not geting out paracetamol for fear of taking rather too many. lol. But hey. I could be thinking worse things. I thought I would feel a little better after talking with her, but I don't. Really quite annoying lol. I am glad I have got you ppl anyway. There is somebody in chat most times of the day.