Happy Thanksgiving to those in the U.S.

I'm feeling really low today, body pains, etc. Just there usual downs and downs.

The Modafinil I started a couple of months ago is working but I'm just going from severely depressed to moderately depressed... no baseline yet. There are days where it's moderate and days when it's severe... today is a severe day (yesterday was too).

I think part of the issue is that the grief of the loss of my sister almost 2 years ago and a close relative 10 months ago is starting to catch up with me. We have been so busy this year managing an elderly relative who became disabled this past summer that I haven't had time to process anything.

Plus I have the stress of a new job and everything that goes with it ( politics, commuting, day to day stuff). It's a technical job too so there's that.