if you want to take meds (decided it's a reasonable trade off), you need to take them consistently... not "take it, not take it, take a LOOOOOOT of it cause it feeels SOOOOO GOOOD, not take it...." That is only going to cause damage.

I'm really confused with what you mean "take a LOOOOT of it? Feels sooo good? If there's one thing I DON"T do, it's take excess medication, I don't want to be on it period. If I referenced low grade hypomania feeling really really good, it does.

And yes, it's my right whether i want to take anything or not. I just gave seroquel a second chance. It lasted what, 5 days? If I wake up screaming in the morning, without any reasonable stiumuli, actually not even with the slightest stimuli, ....I think that means I probably shouldn't take it....Not to mention the other weird things that started going thru my head yesterday, which were actually weirder than what was happening before I restarted it.

My compliance history is pretty F'in solid. When's the last time I missed a dose of lamictal? Other than by accident and taking a little bit late once in a great awhile, it's been years....

Valium? I would prefer to not take it period. I do take 5mg nightly for awhile now, 6 months probably. With perfection. Don't think I've missed a dose anytime recently, and certainly have never over-taken it, and my script is for 5-10mg. Can probably count the times I've actually taken ten on one finger.

So I have no idea what you are talking about at all. This is a support board?

I won't be back anytime soon, and really the only time I actually post is when I'm having a hard time. ie. now.

The medications 'we' take are largely BS. I'm allowed to say that. Even if I don't think that 100% of the time. And it's my right to 'not accept the need for medication'. Which obviously I'm NOT doing or I wouldn't be taking the lamictal and valium still.