Thanksgiving. Or happy Thursday

I had issues getting to sleep but I woke up early & pretty well rested ... have had a lot of thoughts and plans, not so much hurting myself but recklessness.. been safe.

I am thankful for a lot, to keep trying, for people I've met through out the years, humans that do share connections.
I am thankful to be trusted to watch someone's fur babies. I like these dogs, and some what believe they help a bit to see. It's an easy and purposeful job for me.

My ex wants to go to brunch with me today. .. he is following through it appears this year, he always means well. Some times Idk why he wastes his time on me , but it's because he does love me even if we didn't work out. I've had some people that know both of us mentioned that I probably am helping him out by breaking up... no one really thinks of me irl on this.

For years this has just been another day, used to work a lot , or go to exs parents ((which I found hard because they didn't want any help and not only that but there is baggage within their tribe like any, but idk I could "feel it" maybe just my issues))..
But this year I have vacation for the first time In 12 years and am thankful to have some days away while helping out someone else.
Still have had depressive thoughts but they come and go. Just like the hopeful and "I got this" thoughts.

I am looking forward to going to brunch, I hadn't even known there was actual brunch places, I may look into that next year.
I like the idea of a potluck meet up, that i believe DownandLonely mentioned...