Welcome to PC. Thank you for your post, I found it most interesting, and I now realize that I did some of this. I also come from a background of abuse. A couple of things I have learned along the way. While it is good to give therapy some time; you can tell the therapist if you think you need more or different assistance with a particular issue. Therapists vary in their approach and areas of expertise. Another thing that comes to mind: it seems to me that as human beings, we have strengths and weaknesses; and that at various times of life (with different stressors) we see these either recede or come to the fore. For example, depression is my fall-back position when I am stressed (and there are various stressors for me: from extremes of weather to pressures of work; holidays (big right now)), etc. Do you have your own romantic relationship in real life? Do you want one?

That leads me to the other thing I have learned. The more invested I am in real life, with immediate things -- meeting friends for lunch, doing volunteer work in my community, getting involved in work, etc., the less important social media and public figures are to me.

You might also consider taking what you admire/like/desire from what you see in public, social media and gathering it to yourself. For example; examine what it is about this man you admire and then find a homegrown version in real life.

I personally do not think a little fantasy and imagination is a bad thing; nor do I think interacting social-media wise with performers and others who put themselves out there for the interaction is a bad thing. But balance is a good thing, and real life is the best thing, imho. Please don't 'beat yourself up' over this; learn what you can from it and enjoy your real life.