Clozaril makes me fat, tired, and having to go to the hospital every week for blood work, and weekly trips to the pharmacy. ECT makes me stupid and dependent upon my family because I can't drive or really do anything on the days I do the treatment. I don't think Pristiq does anything really, although maybe that's why I've been dizzy and sweaty lately.
This doesn't seem any better than before I was taking any meds. Maybe I should have just learned to deal with my symptoms instead of putting myself into a position of being poisoned. I see my pdoc on Monday after ECT, and I will be asking to taper down on these toxic tablets.