I had one day over the weekend that I did not bp. But I felt awful all day and had to fight the urge by staying so busy I didn't even have time to get close to a bathroom. I have purged 3 times today. I feel awful everytime I eat, but my mind tells me to eat all day long. It is driving me crazy. I don't have a number for my therapist, but I can call the emergency line and they can get someone to call me. I don't want to talk to someone. I wish that I had email for my therapist. She does not even have any idea that I b/p. I have been doing it for more than a year now. Some days I just don't eat, others I eat and can't stop. Those days are more than the other, and then i purge more and more. I don't know what to do. I was also running a lot until Thanksgiving when I fractured and sprained my ankle, that put me down for 3 months with no running and I have no desire to do any other type of exercise. I have been released to run again but am having a hard time getting back in to it even though I missed it so much. I feel lost.