I messed up my meds AGAIN. Which is 3 times in 6 weeks. My pdoc is not going to be happy with me. First I messed up the math and lowered my klonopin way too fast and had to correct that. Then I missed a day of clozapine and almost took a double dose. Now I ran out of gabapentin Sunday and forgot to add the new supply to my pill box when it came in the mail. So I'm off that totally which is a long-term goal but not until after I'm off klonopin. So I'm going to get back on that although I'll start at a 400 mg dose and go up if it seems ok. No wonder I've had weird nightmares (although oddly I've been sleeping through the night better this week).

I can't believe I've done this. I'm so careful with my meds and very rarely mess up. I do not want to have to go back to supervision with meds. When I did that before it was because of suicide risk but I know if I'm not safe for any reason I'll be monitored again. I understand this but I hated it and don't want to go back to that. My therapist and pdoc are both going to be unhappy.

Better get the gabapentin before I forget it again.