Don't be so hard on yourself. It's a bit farfetched to think I am a real life Dr.House! I am just like you! Don't you have 99.9% same genetic material as me? Everything can be achieved with hardwork and dedication and passion and goodwill.

One example is, "I want to be a physicist so I will be respected by people and so I'll get more salary than others!" I wouldn't recommend doing that, obviously. Cause you're loving only the concept of being a physicist as compared to the real deal, which is a lot of science and intellectually challenging hard work. Money and respect are nice, but they'll follow if you love physics itself.

And don't be sad over qualities you have no control over, work hard and try to be successful in life. That's all that matters.

Thank you, best wishes from me as well.