I am better. I am out of physical pain for the first time since November. That counts a lot. I have processed what happened and told my spouse where not to go if he wanted me alive. He understood. As I age my reactions become more physical and that bothers me. Barfing for example. Perhaps I should say it's good as I purged the problem. My reaction was so old PTSD. Not healthy, I want to be healthy so badly.

Thanks for asking about me, you are very kind.