As usual for a Saturday, I am sitting in the dark and sitting at the compter. I do not want to go out or to get dressed. I get totally lazy because I am tired from working all week and from the holidays. I need to change this losing pattern.

I caught a cold this week. Signed up for a tennis party and showed up only to find out that the heat at the courts was not working. Played against my better judgment and am now paying the price.

I continue to avoid people. I just do not seem to enjoy the company of other people very much. Enjoy is the key word; for some reason I prefer to be alone.

I am thinking of giving up tennis. The game is not the same. The racquets are too light and much too stiff. I can't seem to find a racquet that works for me. And, being a below average athlete, I cannot keep up with the other players. I have to find a new hobby.