Thanks all - yes got through tonight. I just thought it was odd that it felt for no reason that the urge was there. I've made a new pact with myself... that when the urge comes up, before i cut, i will call t. guess i ought to tell t, eh? lol. i think that is what she's trying to get me to do - little slow sometimes, i guess. I usually tell her *after* i did it. Maybe - because I REALLY don't want to call her - it will keep me from doing it...?