We went to thanksgiving. I didn't think I'd get my husband to do. We did not get all dressed up though so we ruined the pictures. Then I went with my family black Friday shopping on Thursday. Friday we watched my very busy 3 year old nephew in our not so kid friendly house.

Me I'm a mess. I feel I've ruined Christmas already. I don't have the money for it. Usually I have Miguel write down 10 things and we give him what's left off the list. Everyone got there own thing this year and none of it's on sale. Plus I gave half of his budget to a joint gift that he can't open until my parents Christmas. Now we can only afford one thing on his list. So I got him a couple of $5 things. I want to get him a tee shirt crate (which I feel he needs). which means he gets nothing from his list . My mom says he's 16 he'll understand but still. I have 2 - 3 years left of him being home for Christmas. This doesn't count the 20 other family members I have to buy for. Then we have our nephew here and all that drama coming.

All this is making me want to SI and I've misplaced my lamictal so I'm down to 1 every 2 days when I'm suppose to be on 2 a day. If we can't find it today I'm going to start on my husband's old lamictal tablets. So that doesn't help. I still think it's situational.

My husband doesn't feel any better. He's determined to wait until our appointment. Basically lost his drive to call.

Miguel's wounds are healing. He says he's on the verge of suicidal thoughts and just depressed. Yes I snooped.