So ever since I was little I did this and I still do. I have dialogues in my head of things I would say and things someone I am attached to would say (mother figure types: teachers, counselors etc) Its like I am in my own little pretend world with them. Sometimes when I talk to real people I will talk as if this person I am talking to is listening too. So I may say things I would want them to hear to like my personality. What is this? Also I would like to know what this other thing I may be experiencing is as well. We would all agree I think that we as a society like horrible stuff: horror films, rubbing necking at the scende of s horrible car accident etc. I have a whole other side of me when it comes to that though. I am interested by some very horrible things. Get a sense of enjoyment. Its like Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde.