So, uh, I’m not really sure how to explain this but i’ll try to do my best. So I’ll say this: When I’m with people at school, work, online or wherever, i’m generally an outgoing person. But lately, when I’m not around people, I question myself. I doubt myself, I look down upon myself and basically hate myself. I think this build up of repressed self loathing has been building up ever since I was a teenager and this stress of school and a job that I never wanted but was forced into made these feelings all come together.

I have a habit of hiding my true emotions away from prying eyes in order to, keep my image clean in the outside world. ****, I can’t even fathom what people would think of me if I told them how I really felt about certain issues. I think the added stress of this job my parents forced me into set off this powder keg of emotions inside of me. So far it’s been easy to hide my feelings but I feel myself slipping everyday. I’m
not gonna kms because that’s not me, but I just feel so melancholy everyday now and I don’t know what to do.