I think it must be some kind of dependency and that I don’t want to feel alone but I never been through this and I don’t really know how to deal with that. I have an appointment with a social worker on Tuesday and I hope I get one with a psychologist soon. I need help with learning how to deal with what I’m feeling and maybe learn how to take care of myself and build my self esteem. I woke up feeling nervous as if something happened and thinking of him and I’m sick and tired of going through this. I want my normal me back!