((((whisperingskye)))) I'm so sorry you're struggling. Until you're able to get a therapist, a good idea is to do the opposite of what your mind or body may be suggesting. If it tells you to isolate, try to socialize; if it tells you to drink, don't; ecc. Also if you happen to feel suicidal, call an hotline. Hopefully talking here helps you as well. We'll always be here to listen to you. Please don't give up. I'm so sorry this is happening to you