I found that the cbd strains just make me very tired and since I already have a long term problem with fatigue (post-chemo and chronic pain) it just doesn't work for me.

Every day I ask if I am sane, if I am hearing things, or having unusual thoughts and the answer has been 'no', as long as I take my antipsychotic every day.

Pot used to make me feel happier and more productive but I don't get that kind of buzz anymore. It just sort of numbs the uncomfortable and sad thoughts of my existence. I still think it is safer than alcohol for me.

I'm not using it as a 'mood-stabilizer'. I don't think it helps 'my bipolar'. I just prefer to be mildly buzzed than not. It's my little refuge.