yesterday I wanted to self harm (I didn't, despite having access to what I wanted), I ended up watching some comedy show on tv and forgot about it

today those thoughts are even stronger (and I'm still near the item in question). I've so far watched a christmas movie and a programme about the ambulance, but it's not really making a diffrence to how I feel.

tonight I'm having my roast dinner like usual, then probably like usual go back to my room and do nothing.

again today isn't really my day (hasn't been my day for ages)