Good question. although i have to be honest, i too am better today than 3 years ago. but i dont know HOW i would handle NOT waking up depressed/suicidal or wish i could cut......just always has been there.

It would be a nice change to the life ive grown accustomed to. I would love to wake up every day and say im a good person and i deserve everything wonderful and actually believe that. I am getting there. dont think i will ever get that to 100 percent, but the days i DO think it, its nice.

In order for me to be fixed. i would need a brain transplant!!!!

What would need to change? I would want to move away from where i live, my abuser locked up or gone, and more time with T.

I wish somebody would wave the wand over me and cure my depressed self....that would be a welcome change. Good post.

Colleen